Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Happy Freaking HallowFAT Day to me!!!!

Ok it is official...I'm fat, ugly, and repulsive....I am so disgusted with my body I can barely stand living in it. I got on the scale and I am at my highest weight without being prego ever. I am scary to even look at. Never have I been so freaking fat. Why in the hell did I get on the scale today. God it sure is a SCARY DAY!

7 comments:

Beth said...

No, no, no, Lauren. Talking that way will not help you feel better and not help you lose weight. Think about what you can do, not how much you weigh. P.S. I hate my weight too, even not having a scale. Have a happy Halloween with Little C!

æ said...

hi Lauren,
I think you're beautiful. I don't need a scale to confirm or deny that.

I'm sorry today feels maddening and extreme and out of control--I promise it eases up. You know this--you have ridden it out so many times. Let's make the scale go away...you are more than that.

lots of love,
ae

sarah said...

hi beautiful lauren,
ae is right - you are so beautiful, woman. no scale should be able to take that away. I'm sorry you're having a tough day. can you snuggle into little C and feel his love?

xo
lulu

Carla said...

You need to go beat the shit out of your scale, Babe.

You are so much more than a number.

You are amazing.
You are a great friend.
You are a fantastic mother.

I could go on and on, but my battery is running low. Thus, I'll write more tomorrow. Or call you!

Soledad said...

I am with Carla. Beat the shit outta that scale. Take a hammer to it. I did with mine and it felt GREAT! You are more than that number. Liberate yourself from weight!!!!!!! The amount you used to way that you are comparing yourself to now was unhealthy. It was killing you. Don't hold youself up to that deathly standard. Throw the scale away!!!!!!!!!!!! and reject that old number that put you so close to death and Little C so close to no having his mommy around!! Look at all you have accomplished. Hang in there:)

Love you
xo

Sole

Mary said...

Ditto what everyone said here (but hey, I'm feeling the same way sweetie!). It will pass, hang in there.

I hope you were still able to enjoy Halloween with your little guy!

Sarah said...

I know how you feel, I do. . . it will pass. Feelings don't last forever. Hang in there and try to stay off the scale if you can, my sweet sista!

I hope you and little C had fun yesterday!

xoxo
Sarah