Hey F why does you mouth smell like corn chips?

Smiles, smiles, smiles,,,,,,
My meeting went so great last night and for the first time EVER I got some numbers for a few women who have a clue of WTF is going on!!! Don't know if I will actually call anyone but I got the numbers. That's a step.
I got an email this am from F and I about lost my mind. He has been getting on my nerves so bad!!!!!!! I talked to him last night and he said very sweetly that if I ever needed support or someone to go to a meeting with he would go with me and I about bit my hand off, I was so pissed that he would even say that to me. Sounds weird I know but I feel like he is trying to infect every bit of my life and I just cannot deal with that. In the email he wrote me he was getting all deep and bringing up all kinds of stuff and finally I had to tell him I did not want to talk about my stuff with him anymore! I want to just put a dirty sock in his mouth sometimes to shut him up! AHHHHH what is wrong with me!
He is the only person who does this to me! I hate when someone thinks they know everything about what I'm going threw when they have no clue at all. Is he hanging his head over the toilet countless times a day and getting on the scale even more??? NOPE. Just shut up already!!!
Sorry guys just venting and so funny but once again I have my whole body tingling.
Ok I just took a DEEP breath I so needed to!!!
I just want one day to happiness again, is that really to much to ask? Maybe. Got on the scale and that damn lb came back, its so frustrating being at one weight one day and expecting it to keep going down and all it does is keep going up then down then up ect. Never ending cycle.
Little C has been awesome, he was all over the place in bed with me last night, he kept crawling off the bed onto the floor to sleep I think I picked him up 20 times before he started telling me NO momma. He has been loving staying with my dad unlike me, the commute is driving me nuts, paying this crazy amount for gas has been making be nuts, having to talk to someone other than C is making me nuts, and having to try to hide and sneak my BP is driving me insane, completely insane! I want my freedom back I feel like I cannot even go to the store without telling someone for god sake I'm almost 30. My shit not there's I know!
Ok god I love this blog I'm always able to think more clearly after I post.