Sometimes I feel like I am living in a glass house!!!! Like everyone and there mother knows what is going on with me, and is watching me waiting and hoping for me to fuck up yet again.
I admit I have not been the greatest with my ed stuff in the past and it is so weird how when is shows its ugly head if effects your head.
Like this post I have no effing idea what I am talking about!
I'm lost and I'm fucking sick of being judged and having others talk about me when they think I can't hear!
I feel like a SHIT mom right now! I have energy to do shit.
I ......................
never mind I'm not worth listening to right now I'm to angry or frustrated or sad or who the hell knows!!!!!
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Hi Sweet Sister...
I'm sorry you're having such a tough time, hon. Sending you some love.
lulu
It's not your fault that you have an ed and don't know how to make it go away. I think people without ed's just don't understand that. If they did, they wouldn't talk as much. You just need to keep trying everyday to find a solution. And if you do, let me know!
you are not a shit mom.
you are a fantastic mom, a wonderful friend and you can always make me smile, no matter what. oh, i forgot to mention you are THE best shopping partner ever.
i'm sorry that people are being idiots. if they are close to you maybe tell em about some good ED books to read? or simply tell em to bugger off that are you doing what you can do at this moment in time and what they are doing is not helping you, but hurting you. (btw, if you need help with the telling em to bugger off, you know i've got your back!)
NO, NO, NO, NO ... if someone is shit it ain't be you, that's for sure ... you are one of a kind, my little and so dazzle and confused friend!
Sending you tons od hugs and kisses.
oh honey . . . I love my sweet sister. I'm giving you the biggest hug right now.
xoxox
Hey hon,
When the ED is working its evilness on us, these feelings are so strong. It is so easy to believe that we are worthless. I know you are more than what the ED is telling you. I know you are a great mom. I know you are beautiful (hello, I met you!).
You know you can call me anytime. One day (or even one hour) at a time. I'm on chat today too, if you have some time.
xoxo,
DG
Sounds like depression is rearing its ugly head my friend. You're trying Heidi. Gotta give yourself credit for that. I hope you're using the people that love you for support. When you talk, share, express, the ugly stuff that you don't like in your head loses a bit of its power, not all if it, but enough to stop it from getting thicker.
In the famous words of George Straight, "Life's a dance, we learn as we go, sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow. Don't worry about what you don't know, Life's a dance, we learn as we go." Corny, yes...lol but I've always found a bit of wisdom in those words. Hope you can find them too.
Think I might call you later this afternoon after I'm done at A's, so answer if you can punk! ;-)
You are wonderful, hon. I'm sorry you're having a tough time right now.
Don't ever call yourself a bad mother, though. The fact that you consider little C in the first place proves that you aren't. Bad mothers never think that they are.
Love ya and I hope you feel better, soon.
-"Julia"
you're always worth listening to.
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