Monday, April 21, 2008

7 days but feels like forever

It has only been 7 days since my last post but it really feels like forever.
Things have been really busy and really frustrating, this whole situation with moving has been a nightmare but hopefully things will turn around. I found out when they ran my credit report that there was an eviction on my credit from when Sam and I lived together and we were NEVER evicted and even if we would have been I was not on the lease so there should be nothing on my report at all. I have been fighting with that apartment for the last week and finally today I called the owners of the apartment and told them I would be pressing charges if this was not corrected, and thankfully the one I was dealing with (ended up being the VP) sent me a letter stating all the truth, so hopefully this will mean that I am going to get the apartment. They said that was the reason why I was denied. I will not give up dammit I will get this effing apartment! (Update: The lawyer that filed these charges, has disappeared no where to be found) filed a dispute with the credit agency today but was told it will talk 30-45 day for a reply!!!! ERRRRRRRRRRRRRR I hate SAM!!!! He is like a effing weed that keeps coming up to haunt me!
Hopefully his lame ass is in jail........... How did "I" ever end up with someone like that?? A question I will ask myself till the day I die!
Work ugh don't even want to go there!!!
Therapy has been going really well, I really like her and the specialist I am seeing for my TMJ is great too. I have started my search of an Ed T but that may take some time considering I have just gotten comfortable with the ones I'm with!
Picky picky picky!!!!
Had a great weekend. Spent Sat at this place called "Pump It Up" which is this huge 6000sq ft building with jumpy houses in it..... It was the twins birthday so we were there jumping around like a bunch of 4 year olds with all the kids.... I had so much fun but cut my arm open on the first slide down....hahaha go figure the only one that got hurt was the 30 year old....
Then went to my dads to hang with my grandma and my sister but ended up mainly with my sis and helping her get ready for a "big" date!!! She is such a pimp I swear!!! Love you A!!!!
Sunday I took a drive up to Calistoga with my little man, we walked the town, had lunch and then went for a little hike,, it was fun and much needed mom and bubba time!
Eating has been not so hot, but hey when is it ever, my body is like a 4000lb horse. I feel the fat coming out of every spot on it and want to cover up unless I'm alone then I want to wear a huge tee shirt and not have anything touching me!!
3 episodes today thus far, god why do I do this to myself????
My headaches and TMJ are not so hot but I know they will continue until I get mia under control. Wish I could wake a wish and let this all go away!
"All we need is love"
"All we need is love"
"All we need is love love love"
"Love is all we need"
God if only these lines were true!!!!!!!
I have plans to go out with my mom (funnest date ever) on Thursday night
it is the first Farmers Market and there is a Jazz band playing that we always go see, then off to this great little wine bar in town. People in our town look forward to opening of Farmers Market every year, (shows how little our town is) big night to go out. I'm hoping M and his little one will not be out and about but fear that they just might be. The good thing is that lately I have had someone else to occupy my mind since him and honestly even if it is only in my mind and never a reality I'm ok with that because I smile so big when I think of them! Thank you sweets!!! Huge kisses your way!

There is an issue that I have spoke of several times since I have been blogging and have always said I was not ready to go into but I think that maybe just maybe it is time.
Ok maybe not yet,,,,haha chicken shita!!!
Soon I promise, fear of judgement like always, but I don't know why because you have never judged me, only been loving and supportive!!! I love you and thank you for that.
Time to work, off early thank god.

7 comments:

Jade said...

Well I'm glad you and Bubs had a good time on Sunday. I'm sure getting out of the house helps a lot. Just being outdoors can help a lot...
Girly, I'm so super proud of you for taking the steps that you're taking to get things in order, for you, and your little one. I know the red tape can be frustrating but just hang in there, it will all get untangled.
I'm still going out on Friday, I know you're going out thursday, but if you feel like it and have a sitter I'd love to see you! Just gonna hang out, have sangria and go to a hookah lounge :-) So far its just me and a friend, so...offer stands k?

Sending you lots of love and peace for your day and body.. :-)

Mary said...

You know, I see a lot of good things happening here. You are fighting hard for your apartment (sounds like a royal pain in the ass but that is awesome that you are standing up against that crap), you have fun things going on, you are bravely meeting with good therapists and doctors, and people who really love you. The ED is not going to win with this much positive stuff going on--it can't. You are so much more than it, so just keep focusing on the good--I know how hard that can be sometimes but just remember that you are awesome and that ED can take a hike! ;-)

sarah said...

hi lauren,
sweet friend! it's always really good to hear from you. I think of you all the time!!!!

love,
lulu

Anonymous said...

Always nice hearing from you my cutie pie!
And thanks for all those happy birthday kisses :)

PTC said...

I'm glad you're liking things with your T and specialist. I hope you find a great ED T. I want you to be healthy!!

Spiky Zora Jones said...

Oh lauren. I'm so proud of you baby doll. You sound like you can take on what ever goes your way... Kick ass babes. I know you can do anything you set your mind to.

It sounds like you had lots of fun with you your little one. ha...I can't wait till mine is around that age. I love the things kids say and how they think...but mine is still in the baby stage...and I love that too.

Did you say...jazz band? I love jazz. I actually love farmers markets. The one by the studios in L.A.. is awesome. I love all the different foods there too.

Have a wonderful time with mother...you have to let us know how the music was too.

lauren...I love your posts. I can almost feel your smile. :)

I can't wait to hear what you now think you are ready to say...You know I would never judge you. You say when you want sweetie. This is your blog.

Have a wonderful evening and rest of the week, beautiful. Give a kiss and hug to your little man for me. he's so cute with his hair spiked. My brother said he want to give my little one a mohawk...Oh noes. :D

Carla said...

i love you soooooooo much, my lil munchkin!
i'm gonna try to ring you tomorrow so we can plan our next get together. i need some lauren-ness in my life and miss you sooooooo much.

oh, i've had to deal with the credit bureau peeps, so if there is anything i can help you with, just say the word! i learned a lot during my fights with them.

hugs to you from your south bay girl.