Friday, May 23, 2008

I suck at the game of life!


I.......want to be done!
How can someone have so many good things in there life and still be completely unhappy!!! I'm tired of always wondering if I'm making the wrong or right decisions, about me little c N all of it!!!!! I can honestly say I have never felt this way about a man before and I know he is the one, we talk for hours on end, sex is so not the main part of our relationship which for once is really really really nice!!! We talked a lot last night about how we can both feel so strong so quickly and the only answer we could come up with is "when it's right you just know it"!!! It that true???
I'm so excited about this weekend so much mommy and me time with little C just me and him and the pool and lots of hugs and kisses!!!!!
I want to lose only 7 lbs,,,, is that really to much to ask???????????
Errrrrrr fat & bubbly,...
Die ED Die already!!!
I have monkey mind and cannot play this game of life any longer!

12 comments:

Spiky Zora Jones said...

Sweet sweet lauren...don't be afraid to fall in love, sweetie. Be afraid when you can't.

Let the pieces fall where they may...the universe will balance for you.

Sweetheart, you look beautiful with 7 pounds or without. Anyone that knows you and love you...feels this way.

Baby...don't be down. Go outside and denjoy the day. It's a wonderful day and many people love you...I do.

Have a wonderful weekend.

Anonymous said...

You are beautiful and wonderful, inside and out.
Please, please, take this opportunity to be with someone who knows that.

Mary said...

Hey girlie,
First of all, I love this picture of you even if you are feeling melancholy in it. I miss chatting, I am in the same spot as you. Better than a few weeks ago but still having those days where losing a few pounds seems like the only thing that matters. UGH!

I am at the grandparents right now and available to chat in the evenings if you get little C down.

Love you!
DG

PTC said...

Hey Lauren. That picture is so sad. :( I want you to be happy and you can be. You have everything right there in front of you, you just have to get rid of this demon!!

xoxo

Carla said...

Sorry I missed you on messenger the other day. I hope we can chat (on messenger or on the phone) really soon. And let's plan to meet up! Maybe we can talk DG into coming back and hanging with us for longer than last time!

Feisty Frida said...

I've missed you Girl! You're right, you have everything going for you, die ED die....as for losing 7lbs, sigh, you DON'T need to lose 7lbs, you are so perfect and gorgeous just the way you are.

xoxoxo
Frida

Jade said...

Sending you so much love and strength right now girly. You know I'm here if you ever need to chat with a friend! Just call! We don't even have to have serious talk, you know how we giggle! Use you're supports when things feel this low, k?
(((((((((((Lady H))))))))))))

Anonymous said...

Now is that a way to be in a photo?
You, queen of beauty and joy that sad?
Where's your smile?

If love is in the air, just breathe it!

Loosig weight? Don´t put things into a very high level ... I can say that because it takes me 4 hours a week in gym plus 1 hour of playing loosy basketball to keep me around 77 kgs.
It isn´t easy so don´t expect things to happen in a flash ... but I think you are ... phiiiuuuuu!!!

Spiky Zora Jones said...

lauren...Do you know how beautiful you are?

I do...very, very beautiful. :D

Anonymous said...

Pretty girl how are you?

Yesterday I was listening to Old Blue Eyes (Frank Sinatra) singing MY WAY; that's the way we should live our life!

Don´t go by what others may think or do, do it your way ...
but without silly things, please!

Sarah said...

hi my sweet sister.

xoxoxoxoxo

being the change said...

hey L. i haven't been around much -- but am making my rounds, catching up on people's blogs...i hear you on this...i wish the damn ED would die already, too.