Im BAAAAAAAAAAAAACK

Well hello there all my lovely's!!!!!
So I'm back.....I think....No I am, maybe not as often as I would like but for a now this is what I have to offer.
This is so weird sitting here typing again because it feels like I have been gone forever when it has only been about a month.
Oh where Oh where to begin.....
Health..............hmmm maybe I won't start there.
Love.......ahh not there either...
Little C.....Perfect...... Little C is doing amazing, he is getting over being REALLY sick with the flu and his asthma/cough but is recovering well even though every single meal has become a life altering event. Him and I have been doing a lot of really fun things together, a few different amusement parks, the beach, the park, lunch and dinner dates, and lots and lots of snuggle time on the couch and in my cozy bed watching cartoons or playing Dora candy land! School is going good for him as well since the bitch teacher was fired and he seems to really love his new one which is great because I love her too.
Living situation "with roomie" well that has been interesting to say the least, all I do know for sure is that come the end of our lease I will be moving out. S and I have actually been getting along good lately however neither one of us have been spending a ton of time at home since our last blow up. Better that way I think because now when we are together we laugh and get along better. She is a post in herself, all the drama that she has in her life I find it hard to even begin to realise why and how she is able to make more for me. Don't get me wrong, I love the girl but god damn...COME ON already!
Ok now for me a bit...work is good been somewhat crazy but good, I have been out for a few due to getting the flu last week and a few other things so it makes it hard when you feel like shit to get back into the swing of things especially when you are the only one here like today....ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
I'm finally starting to feel better, I have not had the flu in like 10 years so you can imagine what a baby I have been... I have no idea how people with multiply kids deal with getting sick because I wanted to DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the hardest part was I had to take 3 days off of work as well as take care of C and I was not even allowed to really feel like shit because I was to worried about C and his fever! Being a mom so has its highs and lows. I left work today for about 2 hours to go to the dr's yet again to be told what I already knew and that was that I had Bronchitis... I got a few different meds to help with it 2 of them being inhalers which by god......They are working already. Thank heavens for modern medicine.
Oh hey before I go any further I need to give a huge loving shot out to Carla and dg.......God ladies I love you both so such and cannot tell you what a gift it was meeting and spending time with you both!!! Hugs and kisses!!!


Ok now for some mia talk.........I don't think I have ever been so comfortable in my ed as I am right now. That probably sounds really bad to say but the thing is I feel like I am in TOTAL control of it and not so much in a good way. I have been maintaining my goal weight for quite some times now minus the last week in which I have lost a bit but other than that mia has allowed me to be in charge which has been nice. I feel like I can engage when I want which sometimes is far to often or walk away and restrict. I am having trouble sitting down and writing this right now for some reason so I think I'm going to stop here....Not sure whats up with that but not going to dig to deep. Caution I guess.

I have no real love interest other than little C which is probably better that way, but have been spending some time with M here and there, friends really works for us, I laugh more with him that I have ever. To bad he is such a shita,,,haha not really.

God I was hoping there would be so many more interesting things to write about but baby steps right???? I will slide right back in soon I'm sure!!!
I also just wanted to let you all know how much I love you and thank you all for the support you have shown to me............muah to you!!!

I SAW THIS ON ANOTHERS PAGE AND FELT IT WAS SO NECESSARY FOR US ALL TO ENJOY AND TAKE IN. I LOVE YOU ALL AND WANT YOU ALL TO IF AT THE VERY LEAST TAKE A FEW AND SHOW SOME LOVE TO YOURSELF!

Happy Valentines Day!!

Whatever your cross,

whatever your pain,

there will always be sunshine, after the rain....

Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall;

But God's always ready, to answer your call....

He knows every heartache, sees every tear,

a word from His lips, can calm every fear...

Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night,

But suddenly vanish, by dawn's early light...

The Savior is waiting, somewhere above,

to give you His grace, and send you His love.

May God fill your day with blessings!!



Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle!

Taking a break!!!

Feelings,,,,,need to be honest but feeling really no support from here lately and just needing to pause for a bit or just go private completely! This place I come to for me and others and there are a select few of you (you know who you are) that are here for me always and I love you for it, but I really feel like I put in so much into others and am just not wanting to put myself out there when I can write it in a journal instead of making my life known to everyone and being ignored Ugh just feeling like I need a wall here and that is never what I have wanted to feel!!! I hate that I feel pathetic about this! Those of you that have my email please feel free to email if you like.
I will still check in with others.

Not forever just for a bit! Please Dg, email when you have more info on Feb visit!!!!!!

xoxo

Jeremy G Update!!!!!

Hey everyone,,,,,,, Just got a phone call from Jeremy yesterday and wanted to let all of you know that he did go back into the hospital however he will be getting out on Monday! He wanted to make sure you all knew he was ok....Please continue giving this amazing strong man our support, I think we all know how far he has come and how hard he has been working to beat this damn illness!

Lots and lots of love to you all and to you Jeremy, we are behind you 100%.

Ok so Matt White is so my favorite!!!!

Every time I look at you
You always look so beautiful
Driving on the road again the Chevy’s packed
And it is dusk
And I will take some photographs
So I can dream of you

Can’t say I’ve felt such twisting
In my heart this way
we pitch a tent & have one sleeping bag
To stay away
Fires burning , softly singing songs
So close to you

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I think you do, we're lying naked under the covers
Those are the best days of my life

Can’t take away those times we stayed up and we talked all night
Chain smoking cigarettes and three bottles of red wine
Falling asleep together holding your body, close to mine


Oh, And in the morning your eyes open so innocent
The sun in blazing we are sweaty you look lovely
Nothing else matters anymore 'cause your in my arms again

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I think you do, we're lying naked under the covers
Those are the best days of my
Those are the best days of my
Those are the best days of my life

Oh, I never want to be without you
So, just stay with me, I will love you endlessly
Oh, darlin’ darlin’ oh... darlin', darlin'
Do you believe in love at first sight?
I think you do, we're lying naked under the covers
Those are the best days of my life

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I think you do, we're lying naked under the covers
Those are the best days of my
Those are the best days of my
Those are the best days of my life